In 3 friggin months!
In about 3 months from now, I'll be 19. Yes I am aware of that. what I dont understand is why every 3 months before I got a year older, I'll for sure have deep thoughts. Yes, its bothering me. I do know its part of growing up. I do also know, when I'm infront of people, I'm the cray type of person, full of life they said. But when it comes to my blog, I'm a complete different person, sometimes. lol. I guess I like to keep things by myself. I dont like to bother people with my life's craps. Just let me be the one who's holding all those burdens because some might dont understand what am going through. sure you may say, "eh life mu complete jua sudah" or "you've got almost everything". ALMOST. No man. its not. My life's a complete struggle, sometimes. There's a time that I'd rather isolate myself from everyone and just be alone. Just me and my thoughts (brigali eh. HAHA). But whatever it is, we must be grateful for whatever we have before it become what we had. Gila jua eh growing up ani. we grow in terms of everything esp. the thoughts about life. LOL. I miss being a kid. where we've got nothing to worry about. ignorance is bliss and the only problem we had is deciding which crayon or colour to use. Another thing about being a kid is that, we have so much believe in ourselves that to us, nothing is impossible. We'd get injured in order to achieve whatever we want as a kid. True enough, one of the thing I had when I was a kid, shaped me into who I am today. That freakin determination. hahaha. ugh. yeah, u can guess what it was/is. Good girl little meez. You tortured me girl! nadawah. I wouldnt say that. its a good thing really. It made me go through different phases of life and experience everything. My maturity (naaaaaattt when it comes to my fav.crowd. HAHA), is as a result of the obstacles that I've been through. eyah. Okay, life isnt that bad eh after all? I dont say. lol. Well since my 18th birthday is that amazing, I want my 19th to be memorable and no depression please :( and no, I dont want any celebration. I'm not the birthday-type of person. As long I'm around with the people who I love, that's more than enough for me. All I ever want is a good thing happen to me this year and so on. Most importantly, I wanna make my parents proud and happy.
"We may not have the power to choose where we come from, but we can choose where we go from there"
- The Perks of being a Wallflower
ps: Its been a month now ever since she left and people go like "I can be her replacement". no man. just no. Even you said I need a replacement so I wont be so lifeless nemore, theres only one in this world. and thats her. I............................. miss you and why am I too attached :( haha. faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak.
well uh,
Au Revoir!
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