A Prologue
Sudden realisation niggs! Maybe I should have a resolution for this year. haha. So, after 6 days I finally decided to have one. LOL. My 2013 resolution is to live a happy life and relive the life like I've imagined eversince I was a kid, which started to fade 4 years ago. as simple as that. In order to live a happy life, I need to get rid of my hatredness (ha ha ha. I'll try), give more and expect less.We plan our lives according to a dream that came to us in our childhood, and we find that life alters our plans. And yet, at the end, from a rare height, we also see that our dream was our fate. It's just that providence had other ideas as to how we would get there. Destiny plans a different route, or turns the dream around, as if it were a riddle, and fulfills the dream in ways we couldn't have expected. Well, I'm still waiting for that moment to come.
Since I'm in my positivest mood right now, if I rethink of it, I think I'm gonna get through the A level. Insya Allah. But am not gonna expect to be in the overseas or something because yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *insert rants*. What past is a past bro. Past is a prologue. Guess what I'm aiming? Well since I'm a bit icky about my grades, I'm hoping for at least 3D's. I know it sounds so crazy considering what I've been through. But with that grades I can join UniBridge. because I'm coo' like that. nat. seriously. From there I can get into medicine after my first semester if I passed their exam with required grades. Theres no reason to hate my determination now. hahaha. But if I could fulfill their requirement and trus masuk, much betts. but yea. inda me tau eh. As long I'm in uni this year, thats fine. I miss school, cracking my head for exams and those sleepless nights. Not to mention the stress. yea. look whos talking now. lol. I'm grateful for the feelings that am experiencing right now. its like the darkness era of my life is coming to an end. HAHAHA. sikit lagi mcm movie. Alhamdulilah :) If this is a sign...................... I'd be the happiest girl alive but then again, inda ku tau bro because I'm not the one who's controlling the outcome of the future. I can only work for it and I do still believe in my dreams.
So uh, I met an old friend from my high school just now. She's working now. Well first thing she ask, masih kau belajar? well uh, obviously I still am. haha. AAAAAAAAAAAAND, here goes my thoughts whatever you call it, I dont get it why they dont have any interest to continue studying. I'm not trying to make her look bad, she's one of the person who doesnt really give a crap about her studies. She and the rest (well, theres a lot i tell you) would disobey our teacher's request, texting in class, banar inda interested kan belajar and really, you guys are just wasting your time and wasting your parents' money. gila bah. why wouldnt they at least try to work a little bit harder and at least make their parents proud? Well, I'm just no one, I dont have the rights to control anyone's life and I'm not judging them. It's their life not mine. Let's just get snap out of it. Thats actually a lesson learned for me too as well, in a way.
I've been working as a part timer for almost a week now. Well I do sure have a lot of "fun". ha ha ha. It strengthens my belief that web developing, designing or whatever technology craps are not for me. HAHA. I do love doing whatever I'm doing now, but just as a hobby and not for pursuing it as a career that I'll have to endure for the rest of my life (over ni. lol).
This year has got to be my year and a major turnover for me. Amin!
gotta blast,
Au Revoir!
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