So Hi...... it's been a good one year? Time flies...

  
Here's my life update:
• My Bachelor's degree thesis got published here
• I turned 24
• I finished my masters degree in September '18
• Officially an unemployed child psychologist
• Presented my masters' degree research paper in Jakarta
• Feel free to check my recently added tab (above)
• I'm also in the midst applying for a PhD tho. So we'll see how it goes. No responses yet. Idk brah. Pray for me!
• Other than that........... idk.

I sound like a complete mess? I bet your ass I am. I'm only human. People see me as someone who has everything figured out and in control. Well honey, nope. not all the time. haha. 2018 is really something for me. wtf. Aint expecting anything in 2019. Wherever the wind blows, that's where my boat will sail.

    kthanksbye.

    So Hi...... it's been a good one year? Time flies...   Here's my life update: • My Bachelor's degree thesis got published ...


    To be understood, validated and heard. Most importantly are comfort and support from the one who I love the most :(

    To be understood, validated and heard. Most importantly are comfort and support from the one who I love the most :(




    I don't think people could understand how stressful it is to explain what is going on inside your head, when you don't even understand it yourself.

    I don't think people could understand how stressful it is to explain what is going on inside your head, when you don't even und...



    Let go of the past simply because you don't live there anymore. To hold onto the hurt is to deprive yourself and someone else of a beautiful relationship. It's a constant struggle but it'll get better in time.

    Let go of the past simply because you don't live there anymore. To hold onto the hurt is to deprive yourself and someone else of a ...


    Sometimes, I just want to be understood, nothing more, nothing less. 

    Sometimes I wish people would understand that it's not easy for me to go through this. I didn't ask for it. I never did. 

    Sometimes I just wish people would stop questioning me why do I feel like this and why do I get overwhelmed sometimes. 

    Sometimes I wish to not be misunderstood most of the time. 

    Sometimes I wish I am not like this. 

    Sometimes I wish it was easy for me to get over it, like as easy being said. 

    Sometimes, I just wish people would just stop assuming stuff because some things I myself don't quite understand at all. It may be a flashback of a recollection from the past that I suppress. I really don't know. I just don't.

    I know I could be extremely handful sometimes, please be patient with me. Even it may seem that I am not trying, only god knows how much I struggled, every single day. There are days I am fine, there are days that I am not. I just need a support to go through my day when I fell down. that's it. My behavior may be repetitive, but that's part of the battle. I understand it gets annoying at times, but haihhh....... I just don't know anymore.

    Having it, is not something that I want. I didnt ask for it to happen. It is bound to happen. I've been holding on for too long and I am sorry that you had to witness this part of me.

    If you ask how does it feel like to fight this battle; it's dark, there are times I would fell back in but I had to suck it up eventho it's painful and........... it's painful as hell. I feel like there is no way out, when actually it does, with an adequate help and support.

     I'm just pouring my hearts out. I need to cope with this shit and I have submission tomorrow morning. lol. haihhhhhhh.

     Speedy recovery, self. 

    Hang in there. It is painful as fuck, but that's okay, suck it up.

    Sometimes, I just want to be understood, nothing more, nothing less.  Sometimes I wish people would understand that it's not easy f...


     It was totes the most spontaneous vacation I've ever done in my entire life with my harambe. lul. I went on vacation with her few weeks ago. More pics coming soon...... when I'm free as... I've already started my masters. welp.

    It was totes the most spontaneous vacation I've ever done in my entire life with my harambe. lul. I went on vacation with her few wee...



     Das my bethfwen over derrrrrrrr (she's supposed to be studying tho for finals. lul)

    Das my bethfwen over derrrrrrrr (she's supposed to be studying tho for finals. lul)

    Thats right people........ it's the time of the year again. I still find it funny that how a year can change someone a lottttttttttttttttttt. 


    Here's the highlight of me, at 22.

    • On my final year of bachelors degree
    • I finished my thesis by August 2016 (it was a hellish 8 months I swear to god!!!)
    • I chaired a total of 5 events for that year.
    • I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH DEGREE
    • My abstract got accepted :p lul
    • I presented my thesis at Malaysia Psychology Conference in November 2016 
    • I presented my thesis at 1st International Conference Applied Counselling & Psychology (ICACP 2017), Johor in February 2017
    • Got accepted to pursue my studies in Masters of Child Psychology

    All in all, the biggest highlight of me being 22 would be spending the final bits of it with my harambe, my one and only bloody Barbs ♥

    All in all, I've been through all sorts of psychological distresses that makes me who i am today. I dont regret anything really. Everything happens for a reason. and people, comes and goes for a reason too.

    With that,
    Au Revoir! 

    Thats right people........ it's the time of the year again. I still find it funny that how a year can change someone a lottttttttttttttt...

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