Sometimes........
Sometimes, I just want to be understood, nothing more, nothing less.
Sometimes I wish people would understand that it's not easy for me to go through this. I didn't ask for it. I never did.
Sometimes I just wish people would stop questioning me why do I feel like this and why do I get overwhelmed sometimes.
Sometimes I wish to not be misunderstood most of the time.
Sometimes I wish I am not like this.
Sometimes I wish it was easy for me to get over it, like as easy being said.
Sometimes, I just wish people would just stop assuming stuff because some things I myself don't quite understand at all. It may be a flashback of a recollection from the past that I suppress. I really don't know. I just don't.
I know I could be extremely handful sometimes, please be patient with me. Even it may seem that I am not trying, only god knows how much I struggled, every single day. There are days I am fine, there are days that I am not. I just need a support to go through my day when I fell down. that's it. My behavior may be repetitive, but that's part of the battle. I understand it gets annoying at times, but haihhh....... I just don't know anymore.
Having it, is not something that I want. I didnt ask for it to happen. It is bound to happen. I've been holding on for too long and I am sorry that you had to witness this part of me.
If you ask how does it feel like to fight this battle; it's dark, there are times I would fell back in but I had to suck it up eventho it's painful and........... it's painful as hell. I feel like there is no way out, when actually it does, with an adequate help and support.
I'm just pouring my hearts out. I need to cope with this shit and I have submission tomorrow morning. lol. haihhhhhhh.
Speedy recovery, self.
Hang in there. It is painful as fuck, but that's okay, suck it up.
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