Mizah R.: story of my life

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So Hi...... it's been a good one year? Time flies...

Here's my life update:

• My Bachelor's degree thesis got published here
• I turned 24
• I finished my masters degree in September '18
• Officially an unemployed child psychologist
• Presented my masters' degree research paper in Jakarta
• Feel free to check my recently added tab (above)
• I'm also in the midst applying for a PhD tho. So we'll see how it goes. No responses yet. Idk brah. Pray for me!
• Other than that........... idk.

I sound like a complete mess? I bet your ass I am. I'm only human. People see me as someone who has everything figured out and in control. Well honey, nope. not all the time. haha. 2018 is really something for me. wtf. Aint expecting anything in 2019. Wherever the wind blows, that's where my boat will sail.

kthanksbye.

It was totes the most spontaneous vacation I've ever done in my entire life with my harambe. lul. I went on vacation with her few weeks ago. More pics coming soon...... when I'm free as... I've already started my masters. welp.

Thats right people........ it's the time of the year again. I still find it funny that how a year can change someone a lottttttttttttttttttt.

Here's the highlight of me, at 22.

On my final year of bachelors degree
I finished my thesis by August 2016 (it was a hellish 8 months I swear to god!!!)
I chaired a total of 5 events for that year.
I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH DEGREE
My abstract got accepted :p lul
I presented my thesis at Malaysia Psychology Conference in November 2016
I presented my thesis at 1st International Conference Applied Counselling & Psychology (ICACP 2017), Johor in February 2017
Got accepted to pursue my studies in Masters of Child Psychology

All in all, the biggest highlight of me being 22 would be spending the final bits of it with my harambe, my one and only bloody Barbs ♥

All in all, I've been through all sorts of psychological distresses that makes me who i am today. I dont regret anything really. Everything happens for a reason. and people, comes and goes for a reason too.

With that,
Au Revoir!

Well..... technically by my bey. HAHA. My baby got this for my 22nd Birthday. Another prized possession of mine ♥ I forever love u bey ♥♥

Whuddup peeeps! It's been a while. Sorz. I was busy with life. lol. anyway......... its my final few hours of being 21. booohooo. I'll be 22 sooner than you thought D:

Looking back at my life when I first turned 21, it wasnt that pleasant. I lost my maternal grandmother. Still hurts. But thats okay. As I move forward............ I started to achieve things that are impossible for someone at my age (thats my bey said). haha. I became the vice president of Psychology Student Association. Idk how did that happen. I then proceed in becoming a chairperson for 4 events in a span of less than a year. lol. Idk how I managed but yeah that happened. and yesterday was World Autism Awareness Day. yes, UCSI celebrated it and yes I chaired that event. It was the first biggest event I chaired. it wasnt that easy omggggggg. the preparation itself took us more than a month. This event was a collab event with Early Autism Project Malaysia. I..... also presented during that event. I swear to god that was the craziest speech I had to give. Few hours before that event I was told to write a speech. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. being the organizing chairperson, I had to run here and there, fix this and that, to make sure everything is okay. I just had to multitask. In the end, i delivered. wooo! I was nervous as frick. but oh well. its oooovaaaaaaarrrrrr.

As soon as I finished delivering my speech, oh i talked about 2 therapies related to children (dont wow me), a parent approached me complaining stuff why we dont have Q&A sesh and stuff. skip that part, she has a kid with asperger's syndrome. he constantly gets bullied (kids these days needs to be educated). It was a heartwarming moment when she called me again to show her kid perform. Boy, he was gooood! That kid could sing well! She was dancing as if no one is looking at her. I can see that how proud she is of her son. It was such a priceless experience. From this event I learnt that, everyone is special in their own way. Autism is just a spectrum disorder, their "weird" behavior does not reflect what they are. You dont know what they might be capable of, more than the normal person could do.

So..... back to my so called reflection.. All I could say is that, I had a pleasant year being 21. I learnt alot. I learnt how to be grounded and I learnt how to be more grateful. All of that wont be possible without my bestfriend. She's my backbone, my strength and my everything. Without her constant support, I am not where I am today. She also reminded me of what I have become and asked me to be more grateful with what I already have. With that, I thank everyone for a good year. It was a pleasant journey.

and to my bestestfriend in the whole wide world/my better half/my husband/ my wife/ my boyfriend/ my girlfriend/ my mum/ my dad/my bro/ my sis, thank you for everything, for tolerating with my craziness, for always taking a good care of me, I love u forever! ♥

k. back to my final year project D:

Au revoir!

Haaaay peeps! Today is the last day of 2015 which also marks the end of my internship programme. eeeep! I'm taking half day tho today. haha.

So... Highlights of my 2015, chronologically:

• My maternal grandmother left me and the whole fam peacefully on 31st March 2015 (I forever miss u :( )
• I turned 21 (damn gal)
• 3rd century Anniv. with the bey ♥ hewhewhew :3 #overlyattachedbff
• I stepped down as the President of BruUCSI (still am the founder tho. haha)
• I then appointed as the Vice President of Psychology Student Association (it never ends brah)
• I... eh... oh.... metsmwnspeshulhugebreakthroughdaswhy. he he he.
• Designed 3 posters for 3 UCSI events. haha.
• VOC for WCD
• an Intern at CUCMS.

Idr what else happened in my life but most importantly above all, I saw myself grew to be better despite the ups and downs. I thank everyone for the great year. To those who left, I thank u for all the memories that we had together. I don't blame u nor the situation. It just happened. Its mutual. To those who stayed, thanks for staying and for bearing with my shits. You da bomb! Here's to many more years to come!

p.s I'm going back to Bruland tomorrow. eeeep!! :D

I bid u adeiu,
kthanksbye.

Gazillion apologies for not updating for quite a while now.

Anyway, I'm currently on my 2 months internship programme and am doing it at CUCMS. It's been 3 weeks now and uh.... 5 more weeks to go? Cant wait! I miss school actually D: I prefer studying than working. lol. Eh oh, I'm flying home as soon im done with this shiz before starting new semester.

I miss my bey :( < / 3

p.s checkout my health psychology assignment I did last sem on arrhythmia, an abnormal heart beat, HERE.

Kthanksbye.

Macro game tooo stronk! One of my most prized possession. The owner of this other half is my forever other half ♥. It was a gift from my forever other half #cheesy for my 21st birthday. I forever love u bey! ♥♥

Hey.....

It's been a while. first thing first..... I turned 21 few weeks ago and which also happened to be the same week I lost my grandma, forever. It was pretty heartbreaking to be honest. I couldn't make it back home on time. I kinda jinxed myself too few days before when my bey asked when am I going back to Brunei in which, I answered 4th April and I sort of saw it coming tho as I tweeted weird stuff the night before she passed away. kids, shut yo mouth.

I'm still in the denial phase tho. Everything aint gonna be the same anymore. I mean, there'll be no one to make fun of my zits anymore (I had a terrible breakout) and powdered it using baby powder (HAHA. i miss u so much ni and it hurts :( ), no one to look forward to anymore from my mother's side, no more listening to her stories about whoever that stranger was to us or about her past, no more asking for her blessings before I leave for KL and.... it still hurts, to be honest. This year will going to be my first year celebrating Eid without both of my maternal grandparents. I'm still not sure if I wanna go back tho for Eid.

I did went back home tho for few days. Ya know what they said, everything happens for a reason. I'm still in the process of digesting this. I received the news when I was in class, physiology class to be exact. I had to endure so much obstacles (and pain) before I could finally go back (and after too btw). I do still miss her every now and then. I never thought last January was going to be my last kiss and hug to you. I'm glad I went back tho before starting my new semester.

and my birthday part.... Initially I wanted to spend it with my BFF since I never celebrated it with her and it fell perfectly on a weekend. but ehh I wont fret. I'll come up with something (eh hi bey *HINTHINT*).

P.S I'm currently on exam period and I will be sitting for my Physio final exam later. why am I even here :|

I forever love u gramma, Al-Fatihah,

Au Revoir!

Hi... it's been a while since the last time I made a blog entry apart from my artworks. lol.

So anyway...... I'm taking advantage of my mellowness (ujan bah ujann) to write something deeeep (ass shit. LOL). It's been a while anyway since the last time I talked about my bff. HAHAHAHA :p

Earlier today I had Social Psych. class where my lecturer asked everyone if we have besties or not.

Long story short, from this class it made me realize that I...... honestly dont know what would I do without my bff. My life would be so dull, I've got no one to turn to or share my happiness with or maybe send ugly selfies to or someone to bitch everything with. (she be like, get a boyfriend already. girllll. no. you're my boyfriend. lolololololol!) Also this class says that its normal for you to cling with someone you're really close to, which explains my clingy-ness (awu aku ngakun aku clingy. k). HAHA. we seldom see each other. booo :( and I dont care if thats gonna make me look like a loser as well. There's nothing to be ashamed of anyway. I'm forever glad to have her through thick and thin... tho I know, I always bully her or being the absolute bitch *flips hair*. One thing for sure, no one can ever replace her. She's someone who I'd put first above everyone else other than my family. I forever love my bff ♥ hashtag overly attached bff :B

Heres to many more centuries to go!

p.s Munibah Salwani, kau cawir. I still love you despite of yer cawirness.

p.p.s Psychology has taught me a lot more of everything. I'm starting to love it.

twas random... but hey at least theres something to talk about. HAHA,
Au Revoir!

haaaaaaaay. I'm currently at KLIA waiting to be boarded. ahax ahax.

I'm bored. like shit.

Pray for my safety everyone. thanks.

Brunei, I'll see u in a bit ;)

woot wooot!

Au Revoir!

Haaaaaaaay, guess who's going back home next weeek?!

ME!!!!!

Towards the d-day, i will be even busier than I am right now. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA :( It's going to be packed with presentations and assignment submissions. AND, the night before i'm going back to Brunei, I have a formal meeting to attend which is compulsory for all club presidents. sigh. idk when am gonna start packing tho. lol D:

But..... my short break aint gonna be peaceful or free. I will bring back few assignments and an online test to sit. ha ha ha ha. kan beraya ku wah apakaniiii :(

Counting days,
Au Revoir!

Hi. Its been a while. life has been really great in here but I'd be lying if I say I dont miss home every now and then :( it sucks to be away actually. but for the sake of my future, I have to sacrifice.

Right now, i'm missing my mum, my dad, my family and my friends back in Brunei :( it sucks. so bad. I miss the essence of Brunei. I miss everything. Living alone abroad has taught me alot of stuffs. It made me realize how privileged I am to be a Bruneian, with all the great facilities the government has provided for us for free.. I miss that. It's hard for me to save up some bread here. everything is just so tempting and its killing me (my bff would loveeee to kill me right now. HAHA). Eh oh, I miss seeing polite drivers (yes Bruneian drivers are considered as polite), and I miss "free" transportation without having to take public transport (i'm a pro yo). Everything is just so costly (or not) and yet I'm still spending like shiatz (esseh ranting. wtf) D:

and I also met different kinds of people in here.... they taught me some life lesson too on how I should behave and shit and also a person that I never wanna be. It also unraveled of who I am. I'm a hell of one sensitive, clingy little prick... Also...... I made a hell lot new (close/best) friends, esp. from Indonesia :p I was once mistaken as an Indonesian by one of their parents. HAHAHA. just Bruneian being a Bruneian :p

but yea. One day, when I look back I will miss my life in KL (kali lah ah. lol) and will laugh my ass off at my stew-pit-de-ty. I shall look forward to more adventure and experience and everything. Eh oh, I'll be home in about a month from now. HEWHEWHEWHEWHEW :D

ps: Introducing the president of BruUCSI, which is......... *drum rolls* Yours truly! HAHA. :p Yes people, I'm the big boss. so for the future bruneian students who wished to enroll to UCSI in the future, for any inquiries regarding accomodation or stuff, you may email me at bruneian@student.ucsiuniversity.edu.my or simply join our group on facebook.

pps: International Cultural Night is in few weeks. eeeep!

bah das all,
bring me back homeeeeee :(
Au Revoir!

Hi. it's been a while. anyway, heres an update, I'm in my 2nd sem already. holyyyyy..... where did the time go?! and I kinda did well in my finals for sem 1. woot woot! alhamdulilah. and also, I went back to Brunei 2 weeks ago. shit. I still cant believe last week I was in Brunei. apakan ni D: eh oh, I also met my favourite person on earth, Dr.Luke Matthews. Now that I'm back in KL, I wanna go back to Brunei :(

Let it go,
Au Revoir!

Here's a brief update....... I'll be having my finals next week...

oh shit no, THIS FRICKIN FRIDAY!

on a brighter note, home bound soon baby! I'll be back in about 2 weeks from now. woop wooop!

on another note, I turned 20.............. 4 days ago. shit. I'm 20 now? where did the time go?! (well that was supposed to be my parents' reactions but meh. HAHAHA).... yaknow what's awesome? I got a birthday surprise by my brulander friends whom I call family/gurrfriends/partner in crime/whatever u call it exactly at 12am! They came to my apartment. a good start and a good day indeed.

and oh, it's my 4th month living abroad. was it hell? NAAAAHHHHHH. it was hell for the first 2 weeks tho. but haaaay, I got over it (ps: surround yourself with your own nationality and make new friends, most importantly, have fun)

I'll update my blog as soon I've got plenty of time..... I'm currently procrastinating updating my blog at 5 am in the morning. I've been up since 12. I had a little nap. but yeaaa. Still cant wait to go back home soon. ermahgerdddd.

Off I go,
Au Revoir!

Hi. So.... um. that's going to be my view for the next 3 years. sigh. anyhow, I'm in KL now. I've been here for almost a week now and my parents are leaving today. cryyyyyyyyyy.

I'm still homesick :( cant wait for sem break! HAHA. and I cant wait for my family to come over in about 1.5 months from now. yay! :'D Life sucks currently. mau balik. blearghhh! :'( I miss my crib back in brunei, I miss my family, I miss my seeds family, I miss my friends and I miss brunei

I'm still emotionally unstable. but meh, I'll get over this. balik soon what (LOL!)

cant wait to go back to Brunei,
Au Revoir!

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oh hi. It's been a while. lol. I'm sorry. I've been really busy with rehearsals and shits. We're starting the night rehearsals within this week so............ heh. fun.

apani, I'm leaving next month. I'm partially ready, excited, nervous and........... dumbfounded, somehow. HAHA D: Still cant believe that I'm starting uni soon! :/ idfc with the fact that I'm 3 months behind from my friends. oh man. Holiday's been really great despite all craps I've been through. whee. cant wait to see my alai soon! I mean bff. HAHA #alai4lyf!

anyway, I'm knackered,

Au Revoir!

Hi. I just finished reading a book called where rainbow ends. Cecilia Ahern ftw! but thats not the case. hahaha. a must read btw! one book down, 7 more to go! andnoiamnotabookworm.

Anyway, here are some flash updates from me. I know its been a while since the last update. I am glad that I'm slowly recovering from my emotional breakdowns and I'm quite stable now. I finally got what I wished for, a frickin life changing moment. ANNNNNNNNNND, I got an offer from uni. YAY! finally a light at the end of the tunnel. my god. worth the patience, depression and being emotional unstable eh? haha. I will be flying off in 2 months from now. I'm not so sure when exactly because I havent decide when to fly yet as I'm going to fly alone. boohoo! As usual, the parents are going to be busy but I'm hoping someone would go with me and send me off :( haha. sucha cry baby (is not!) one thing for sure it's gonna be in December. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. but I just hate the feeling that I get every single morning as soon I wake up :( I'm not ready to leave yet. My twitter timeline has been vaguely filled with my nervousness. My friends still have no idea about this, only my close ones. This is going to be my hardest goodbye yet. ready or not i have to leave anyway. sigh.

On a brighter note, I'm going to see my bff in 2 months plus from now!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I'm so excited! I miss her so much! Here's a fun fact, I'm going to spend the next 3 years of my life with her while im trying to get my degree :p HEHEHEHEHEHE! I guess this is the reason why something is always coming up whenever I'm trying to go and see her? haha. The aftermath is indeed very...... whatisitcalled.

Here's to the beginning of my phase 2 (ridiculous, I know) life journey! Another adventure perhaps. I'm hoping for the frickin best this time around. I used to be afraid of change, and I am not anymore. I'm going to embrace it and cherish every moment. Change is not bad after all. It might be a whatisitcalled to redirect you from getting into deeper shit and put you in the right path and finally for you to finally have the time of your life, doing things you love. deep. i know. HAHA. one of my best gay mate (shadap) told me to never give up on my dream; she said nothing worth having comes easy, it may take some time but thats much more better than regretting it in the end. Insya Allah, if its meant to be for me, it will be. I have absolutely no power when it comes to this but keep on trying and take every chances I have. idk why am I still relentless after all that I've been through :/ kill me! Time will tell. My god. I should stop before im getting deeper. haha. I still hate myself. kidding. im trying to love me.

time please slow down a bit. I'm still nervous :(,
kthanksbye!

Hi. time will tell, time will heal. eyah k trus trus. haha.

anyway, I'm still isolating myself from people and will only go out if being asked to. Lemme get this one straight, just because I'm isolating myself from everyone that doesn't mean I'm slowly drifting away/apart from everyone. hayl naw. I'm still there, it's just I'm on my invisible mode. haha. I'd still be there if they need me. I don't like the space I've created either. It made me miss my friends so bad, esp my bff. But then again, that doesnt mean i will leave the "hole" just like that. No. I'm still the old mizah that you guys know, dont worry. I just need time for myself to recover from severe emotional breakdown. deep down I'm emotionally unstable. thats what I've been hiding from everyone for months now. I've been excessively too stressed out as well that I'm easily ticked off. you seriously dont wanna be a victim of my anger/ extreme sarcasm that might shred your heart into nano particles, d'you? haha. I do still care about other's feelings eventho they hurt mine sometimes (I dont to some. fuck off). but hey, at least I still talk to some of you guys, occasionally. :p I do miss talking with my bff everyday tho :( but heh. manada ku clingy 0:)

and, I'm still waiting for Uni, the frickin major contributor of my extreme stress. tengs. k. I miss studying so frickin baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadddddddddddddddddddddddddddd D: time matters k. I'm too impatient when it comes to this :| I need anger management, didnt I? well people said the same thing back when I always throw my tantrums at my driver. LOOOOOOOL. :X guilty! but hey, at least I'm good at hiding it now. no? achievement unlocked bebeh! you've no idea how many people I've scared the crap outta them whenever I throw my tantrums about my driver through my twitter and other shits I got mad at. Shit. was I that grumpy like an old woman who's going through a menopause? lol. damn.

ps: I still hate the fact that my mum always, ALWAYS making me miss my bestie every single day. wai mum waaaaiii T_T well just now she asked "mana si munibah?" "psh ma, deep in my heart. go dig her out yoself. you want a spade? I give u a spade alright, the ones with diamonds on" :p I gat the coolest mum in the world eventho she literally replaced me with my bff. hate you >:@ k. Imma take her mum then. lol.

k. gotta blast,
Au Revoir!

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