All too well
Greetings earthlings!It's been a while and whoops! Sorry. I've been busy/too lazy to update/ I have an "amazing" life.
EHHH! It's August already! what. and Ramadhan is coming to the end as well. in about few days from now that is. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :(
I know I should be sleeping right now. but meh. I cant sleep. My
Anyway,............. Life has been really rough for me. esp these past few weeks. Only god knows how upset I am. So much for wanting a life changing moment eh? lol. I'm getting it alright. sigh. Most of my friends are starting uni already but me. its k. haha. not many know this, but I decided to pursue my studies abroad. I dont wanna pursue my studies in my homeland. I do know that many of my close friends (but then again, not all know) objected my decision but hey, its my life and I get to choose what do I wanna do with it. I really do need to be away from home, for a while at least. I wanna start all over, fresh. Be a complete stranger where no one knows anything about me. eyah emo. hahaha! and my decision has something to do with my future as well. But that doesnt mean I'm giving up completely on my lifelong dream. Dream do die hard bro. its pretty crazy. no matter how much I try to divert. I just frickin cant! :( We'll see where the wind will take me. Again, we can only plan but Allah decides which one's the best for you. Sure the path may look so rough rn... Be patient that is.
God. I need to get my shits back together. lemme re-emphasize this: growing up sucks! and things pretty much have changed.......... alot. its too overwhelming for me to handle. for now. Despite all that, I constantly remind myself of what I have right now so I that I'll make full use of it and I should be seriously grateful for everything I have because someone else might have it worse and is fighting to survive.
and awu wah, I've been isolating myself again. idfc. I needed some time to be alone because past trauma is back haunting me. ha ha ha :/ annoying :/ behapakan yaaaaa >:@ and have I told you that I hate August as well? yez.
ps: I miss talking with my bff and I miss her so bad :( its pretty stupid with the fact that I couldnt do anything about it but to just text her and tell her that........... as for now. (pun intended. LOL)
k. imma force myself to sleep,
Bai!
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