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Here's a thing about me is that whenever im upset about something and its killing my braincells bits by bits even after I've spilled it to my bestfriend, I'd still blog it out to relieve it. Because whenever something bad-ish happened to me, I'll be deeply traumatized and will take me sometime to recover. true shiz. I dont really care what you think because I am me and this is my blog.I'm having sucha hard week this week. No I cant say eff life because Allah has a great plan for all of us. It happens for a reason and I do still believe in that. No matter how painful it is, the good will come sooner than you thought. I've been crying for the past few days, yeaaa my soft side has finally revealed and no I'm not ashamed to admit that. whats the point of having the tear ducts when u dont use it at all? :p okay what. lol. anyway, I still cannot believe that my bestfriend is leaving me soon in about 2 days from now. I love her so much and its really painful to let her go. This another crap of life is giving me some crappy sleepless nights and crappy mornings. Well I gotta learn to adapt to the new environment soon. Hopefully it aint gonna be that painful. I guess I am that clingy. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. No you cannot blame me for being clingy. I have no one else to get really attached to 0:)
I remember what one of my SEEDS' coach told me yesterday, yea they knew I was really upset (they saw me crying. eep!) and actually tried to calm me down. nawww. I love them so much! She said that sometimes things dont worked out as planned and sometimes everything happens at once. There's a great reason behind it. Yes, you cant see it now, maybe later. It is really painful thing to face. all you gotta do is to accept it and move on. Life does not wait. Theres no point of cringing about the past.
"Problems are like washing machines. They twist us, spin us and knock us around, but in the end we come out cleaner, brighter and better than before."
Well.......... I....... uh........... dont know. I guess I gotta learn how to react differently from now on and most importantly, to move on. Everyone's right.
I know people would say why apologize for the things you arent suppose to feel sorry for or didnt do or whatever, but to that certain someone, I am really sorry for IT. We're supposed to have fun and vain all day long. Maybe sometime in the future, like what my dad told me yesterday, we will enjoy the reason behind it. From this sorta bad experience I learned that hard times revealed true friends. I knew it from the very beginning that you guys are. Its part of growing up too. Once again, I'm sorry for everything.
ps: I will miss you so badly, Munsy :( I love you and hate you at the same time. HAHA! till we meet again ♥
thats all,
Au Revoir!
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