In my head
I keep on questioning this to myself. Am I serious in this thingy? I mean am I serious in entering the medical school? I know I am still a kid who's gonna be sitting for the O Levels soon and it's hell to early to think about this but Like seriously? am I willing to take the risks? The chances that I might be given? The changes that I might do? The sacrifices that I have to do ? there's lots of questions oozing around my head. Like sigh. I know, This is what i wanna do and wanna be since I was a kid. But then, that made me think twice, am I really seriously wanna take the risk and achieve my childhood ambition? since ya know, I flunked my studies before because I lost my studying mojo :( but now, I'm trying to gain back my studying mojo for my own good and to achieve my childhood ambition. I dont wanna disappoint my late grandfather either. He really wanna see me succeeded in my studies, future and achieved my ambition. He knew that I really wanna be it since I was a kid because I kept on telling him every single day and time 'when I grow up, I wanna be a surgeon'. :') Even 2 months before he passed away, the last convo we had was about my ambition and studies. we talked about everything. Like entah eh. I miss you! :( May ur soul rest in peace :) Al-fatihah.I really have to think twice about this :( should I just go on achieving my ambition or just go with the flow and continue my family's business. Seriously, I hate deciding! :S I'll just pray to Allah and hopefully he'll give me some signs. :) But I think kan, I will just continue achieving my ambition. Like what I said before, This is what i wanna do and wanna be :) and I must work hard for it.
alrighty. that's all for my rants. ciao!
ps: 39 days encounting till mock exam. Me gad! :S I'm nervous. and school's gonna reopens soon. Me hates! HAHA!! :p
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