Distance
Disclaimer: this post may contain some cheesiness (kali. idk.LOL), full with reminisces and etc. Bear with me as it meant so much for me. suck it up. my blog, my crap. It may burn *insert*. in yo face in advance. You may ignore this post. no pun intended.You know whats the hardest part of my everyday life? missing my best friend. Yes, I'm having that moment again :( I dont know what hit me again this time D:
I know its been 5 months since she moved back to KL and its been 3 months since the last time I met her/sent her off for the second time. Nothing is bitchier than distance :/ awu plg some would say, apa jua ganya KL. pakyew k. I have to admit when she first left last year, I felt so horrible, lifeless and all those sort of things. I guess because I'm not used to not seeing her. I'm used to seeing her like almost everyday. well literally everyday. HAHA. Yaknow sometimes when I'm bored to death, I'd read back the old convo we had in my old phone. the most common text? => "PENIDUR #1 KAU ANI EH" LOL. Those good ol' days. I always accidentally fall asleep whenever we're chatting. guilty and still am, now. HAHA.
There's this one time when we both signed up for a voluntary work which required me to wake up at 3 a.m and I'm the one who's gonna pick her up. It was sooo frickin hard to wake her up at first, so I used reversed psychology on her by sayin "I'm otw now" when actually I'm still at home. she freaked out and immediately wke up. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I still find that to be funny :p eh oh, I forgot to say this last year, Kidnapped someone like seriously early in the morning, Achievement unlocked! :p
The funniest thing we had last year is that, almost "everyone" is against me and her being bffs. pssh. jealous people. Actually, We're okay with that and we made fun of them instead. Its me and her against the world. LOL.
She's the only best friend I have. The rest already left me and I'm okay with that. It's part of growing up what? people come and go. I grew up and are strong enough to let go. It was really hard at first, I fell into *insert* and you have no idea how painful it was. Theres no use to hold on the things you can no longer change or you're the only one who's still committed to it thats like having an imaginary friend or sth. They definitely are strangers now. no shit. yaknow. its better to let go and move on. Now I understand why my parents and teacher Nurul (freakyyyy I know) were really reallyyy against my previous ones. LOL :X heres my in yo faces. HAHA. kana blacklist sudah awal awal :X
Then I came to realise that friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest. It's about who came, and never left your side. They left. She didnt. I'm still forever grateful for that. I'm glad that they left anyway (and dont ever come back. thank you very much).
The only thing about her that is different from my previous ones is that, she brings out the best in me and she somewhat could read my mind (which's not entirely freaky at all), or shall I say, theres a telepath connection? :p She has so much faith in me and believed in me that no one else have. One thing for sure, she had done so much for me and yes, she knows me more than I do myself. a best friend like this............. I tell you, is very hard to find, waaaaaaaaay too hard to let go and would kill you if you lost them.
I've no idea why I feel like talking about this. so heh. I just let it out.
The bottom line is......... I frickin miss you so badddddddddddd. Eventho you're still the one who I talk to everyday. I miss you like all the time, since you've been away :( I just miss you. Plain and simple. I miss your presence in my life. i miss you always being there for me when you're around. come back here you bij! T_T
Idk when can I go and see her :(
I frickin love you to death (and resurrect) bro! ♥ I dont know how would I be without you. That will be my worst nightmare, ever! heres to many years to come!
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Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be
broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by
you no matter what. Maybe you will find it in a spouse and celebrate it
with your dream wedding. But there’s also the chance that the one person
you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes
better than you know yourself is the same person who’s been standing
beside you all along.
- Bride wars
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c/a:
I quote: because some days, stay gold forever.
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c/a:
I quote: because some days, stay gold forever.
few days left till my next paper,
Au Revoir!
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