Breakaway
Hi. so new year's in 4 days from now. All I can say is that 2012 has definitely given me something to remember for the rest of my life as well as something to whine and rage over with ==" haha. the crap! My 2012's resolution was to see some changes in my life and no more falling into a depression. but nooooo, things didnt turn out as planned. Hey chill out, it happens for a reason. What is life without ups and downs.So my 2012 highlights:-
January:
- Seeds' willy wonka production
- Chinese new year!
February:
- involved in the "perbarisan lalu thing"
March:
- Seeds 4 workshop
- Medical attachment bro!
- started tuition (oh hello lifeless!)
April:
- turned 18 mofo! :p this is one of the best-est moments in my life! its indescribable! Its pretty amazing. My friends are awesome. got a birthday phone call from Azzah :p My friends sang for me for the freakin whole day. the whole school lagitu. geez. speaking about embarrassment. spotlight of the day bro! hahaha! Definitely gonna cherish those moments forevaaaaaa! I never get hang of reading those greetings over and over again ♥
May:
- Sat for May/June As Level exam
- guess what facebook 2012 review told me? I became friends on facebook with munibah on 5th may! well t'was unexpected. what even. HAHA!
- guess what? I got a freakin infection! no wait, infections. wohooo. meds all the way =="
June:
- May/June As Level exam's still goin on
- Shadowed cardiology department for a week
- still suffering from the infections its freakin painful! couldnt eat for a month.
- oh, I got my license! :p haha
July:
- Met aunty fids a.k.a Dr.Fidah. oh wait no, its Miss Fidah. because she's a specialist. lol. got punched and pinched during my ENT app. because she's jealous of my height (lol k what) she's one of my amazing peeps!
- Mock exam
- got closer to that certain someone 0:)
- fasting month
August:
- raya bro!
- result came out. I dont want to jinx for whatever has happened. nuf said.
September:
- Here comes the depression as exam approaches. whee~ =="
October:
- Ultimate depression. banartah. pressured to level infinity and beyond.
- Oct/Nov A level examination!
November:
- Exam masih bro
- Officially completed A Levels! (oh the horror!)
- Um, from that thing, I know, its confirmed that she's the definite one. She was there (always been!) when I broke down and fell into another ultimate, unnecessary depression. We got through it together so well, I have to admit. My Parents are still okay with her and all, its a sign! lol. (PS: This, I swear will be our laughing stock in the future! HAHA). I guess thats the reason why it happened.
- I love my seeds' family so much!
December:
- Seeds' the wicked witch
- My baby girl left me forever :( noooooooooo! okay, maybe I exaggerated a little. haha.
- It's munibah all the way now from everyone ever since she left ==" hahaha. masme.
Okay, from all of the complications I faced throughout 2012 (not mentioned in the highlight. duh), from the highlights I realised that I have a lot to be thankful for. Now that 2012 is coming to an end, I'm hoping that 2013 will be a better year for me. Hopefully a major turnover. I wanna start a new chapter in life. I dont want to waste anymore time. Eventho I dont freaking have any confidence within me and I think all the works I did wasnt enough, I hope I wont ever have to sit for IT ever again :( Its freaking me out every now and then whenever I think of it. Idk. sigh. Other people has so much faith in me, but me. inda ku tau bro!
Oh why am I still blogging at this hour when everyone else is sleeping. lol. I wont set any resolution for 2013, I just wanna go with the flow. changes can be made as I go along. I'm hoping for the ultimate best. I want a major turnover. I seriously dont want to fall into another depression. I just wanna be happy. I wanna embark a new journey in my life. I hope I'll get closer in achieving my lifelong dream (theres no freaking way in hell am gonna give up). I wanna be better in terms of everything.
PS: Happy New Year everyone! To everyone who was involved in my life this year, thanks for the amazing memories, experiences and life lessons. It's time to let go of the past now.
pps: I freakin miss going out with you frequently and I freakin miss everything so bad eventho I'm with you virtually most of the time. it aint the same man :( haha. cant wait to see you in the future!
I'm out,
Au Revoir!
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