So much worries gushing through. I hate life even more now :( 

I NEED A FULL FOCUS! geez. I wish I dont have these anxieties. why am I living in the future? :(

I need to get through this shit. I'm ready to start a new life and I will try to accomplish my lifelong dream even it takes longer timeeeeeeeee by taking the longer route. I dont wanna go back to that 'hellish place'. I dont wanna jinx it either. Life's sooooo harddddddddd and very unpredictable. sigh. I thought my life is already on track and THEY will help me to accomplish my lifelong dream after passing my O Level. But nooooooooooooooooooooooooo. They demotivate me every single day & very doubtful. I thought educators shouldnt have THAT kind of attitude?! Arent they suppose to help us to get through? its my future NOT them. Not to mention, A Level students needs an experienced teachers with a proper qualification for a proper subjects. just sayin~ thank you very much for deteriorating. Crap's happening along the way, not that I didnt put any efforts. I did. I'm lacking with motivations, I'm tired, I'm at the verge of giving up, I'm depriving for some sleep, I'm freaking out and ugh............ I dont know :( I will get through this crap :(

What in the world,