The feeling........
WARNING: If u hate so-called-emoish post, I demand you to leave this blog this instance, you might hate it so much. I've warned ya. lol! Thank you :)Do you know what's the most excruciating feeling ever? The feeling that you never had for sucha long time and now it's back, hits you right in your face. I hate that sudden feeling! It hurts. So does the flashbacks. :(
Just now, that feeling hits me right in my face and through my heart. I hate the guilts that suddenly surrounding me like a bunch of crazy bees. sigh. and no, I am not emo, am just........... moodless/mad/sensitive a.k.a mixed feelings. thats all. But still I hate that feeling. I dont know why the hell it hits me in a sudden. or maybe bcause am exhausted or maybe hormones or I am the one who's that freaking sensitive. who knows? lol!
Anyway, I am sorry for not treating u guys, esp.me babies for not treating u guys fairly while doing my other stuffs at the same time (and that freakish jokes that I pulled on u guys. lol!) or maybe the other times that made u guys something mad at me? who knows and to my friends if I ever do/say whatever that might hurt ur feelings. I'm really sorry.
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So, I'm leaving my high school soon-er. I still couldnt let go of my past :( Tho I have emotional breakdowns (oh teens :p) 2 years ago, but geez. I dont know. and I wanna say Thank you to me babies, best friend and friends for being there whenever I need u guys :) tho sometimes u guys were not there and I have to work it out by myself. AND, here's the worst part, I couldnt let go my teachers! and my soon to be ex- school :( oh I hate this feeling. But I must move on. Okay, I seriously need to calm myself down. geez! Sensitivity, exhausment and flashbacks are haunting me right now :O I need to stop.
ps: unbelievably, I'm mad at myself for being dumb that I couldnt choose between the good and bad ones. *big sigh*
Okay I'm running out of ideas,
plus this post are way too boring and freakingly not awesome,
Au revoir!
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